Back when I was in third grade at the old Norris school in Grafton, Mass, me
& my buddies would walk down Worcester St. to Lake Ripple for skating & pond hockey after school.
No parents, no grownups - just us. The lake was about a mile long and fed by a small river coming in through a swampy
area at the far end of the lake, away from where we played. We were told by grownups to stay away from
the river at the other end of the lake, where the ice tended to be thinner and often broken with cracks and hidden thin ice. But being kids and all-wise at our tender age, we often headed up-lake after the
games were over, daring each other in that way kids have, to get closer to danger.
The lake ice seemed almost alive at times,
booming and snapping as it reacted to currents running in the icy water beneath or from pressure caused by the ice swelling & thickening. We all knew that should the ice crack & open up
suddenly beneath us, we'd drop through and into the black icy water underneath. People drowned by falling through the ice!
The reason I'm bringing this all up is that we
just got back from my semiannual cancer check up
with my oncologist in Boston. This follows recent checks and lab work
with my
cardiologist, primary care doc, another CT scan, a recent ER visit &
x-ray of my skull, an examination & x-ray of my 8 year old fused
left ankle and several Mohs surgery fun-visits with my
dermatologist.
In the last five years I've had X-rays, MRI scans, CT scans (with & without contrast dye injections), a complete ankle replacement, an intestinal blockage and subsequent cancer surgery, six
staples in my head and more
tests, injections and pills than I can remember.
As I get older, I sometimes feel like I'm skating on the far end of Lake
Ripple again, heading deeper and deeper into the swamp towards the place where the ice gets dangerous.
Every "boom" or "crack!" beneath my feet as I skate towards
the far end seems to be more ominous. I used to go years without any medical cares;
now the pace quickens.
So imagine my joy & relief to learn a few days ago that all my oncology tests were negative. Add to that the great recent feedback
about my left ankle ("solid as a rock"), my head
("you've got the brain of a 20 year old"), heart & arteries ("clear of
plaque") and my other vital internal systems (kidneys, prostate, liver, etc)
and I'm feeling now that the ice under my life-skates is pretty solid right now.
I just wanted to share my experience and outlook
with you. Heading off on my Camino journeys is fulfilling but sometimes out there away from all the usual safety nets of home, it can get a little scary!